His "SuicideNote"
The Suicidal Note of Kurd Donald Cobain, 1967-1994

To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurdt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.



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We don't actually think Kurt really just killed himself? Are there gonna be any future responses to his music and band? There are yet and will be. Nirvana is evergreen whatever you'd mean it. Boddah is a guy or a God he was trying to pursuade us with to think it up he was so much different what is really the truth behind every Nirvana song! Kurt was great, are we?

I don't think nothing of it, I don't care for how he left the world, I posted this for the ones whom do.

sometimes i feel like a part of me left when he died it makes me want to cry

sometimes i feel like a part of me left when he died it makes me want to cry

In his suicide note he devotes it to Boddah. Boddah, in depth was Kurt Cobain's childhood imaginary friend. Boddah started off being a little mischevious, (Kurt would always say "Boddah did it" when something was amiss). Kurt however later described him as the "perfect" being. He did not judge one based on ones looks or actions, but rather the person's true personality.When Kurt was young Boddah was his imaginary friend but as he grew older he knew Boddah as his soul, a vision of this perfect person, a model for how everybody should be. I think this is how Kurt invisioned the interaction with his own mind. Boddah was the only person he could ever count on, after so many others had hurt him.

I feel yor pain for Kurts death. He is the only artists that understood my iner being. He was my hero